A place I love go....

I have a place I love to go

when I need to be alone

to dream of things I wish were true

to dream again of me and you

Sometimes we're on a sandy beach

as a rainbow sky blends slowly

into the roar of crashing waves

and two become as one

I have a place I love to go

when I want to be alone

to dream of things that once were true

to dream again of me and you

A memory of a star filled night

the breeze so soft and gentle

your strength dissolving all my fears

a shoulder I could lean on

I have a place I love to go

no longer all alone

to dream of things that now are true

to dream once more of me and you

Memories...

I came across a card from you

My thoughts flew to the past

A time when our love had been young

And we thought that it would last.

Far in the night your touch I felt

And complete you made me feel

The endless hours of passion

Now are memories I must steal.

Drifting back into a dream

I see you reaching out

The love we use to have is lost

And you I'm now without.

First love...

I'd like to tell a story

about life and death and love

a tale of two lives passing

returning to god above

they say it's infatuation

when first in love you fall

I knew it went much deeper

for to each other they gave all

through childhood days their love grew

and together till their teens

their hearts cried out to others

those who know what true love means

from eyes that watched so closely

their feelings had been hidden

to openly express their love

was wrong and was forbidden

I found them on that morning

how it happened I can't say

together they had risked it all

and at last they found a way

Chapter of my life....

I'm in a chapter of my life

I wasn't ready for

To you I gave all that I had

Yet you expected more

And every time I turned a page

Your desires were much stronger

I cannot fill the needs you have

We can't go on much longer

My needs are not among the flesh

All interest lays not there

But in my heart my mind and soul

Look deep you'll find me there

Broken

Are you happy?

You have beaten me down, 

crushed my spirit,

and taken my hopes and dreams.

Are you happy?

With the single act of selfishness,

you have pushed me back

into the depth of my despair.

Are you happy?

Your lack of respect for the feelings

of others have 

taken my dreams from view.

Are you happy?

I am a vision of self pity

for allowing you to take my hopes.

Together...

Here in the dark I see you

and remembering how we parted

has me longing for the moment

when our paths will once more cross.

Your eyes reached deep inside me

at the time that we first met

and left within me embers

that was started by a spark.

But when we parted on that day

the beauty I had found

turned sunshine into darkness

for so long I'd lost my way.

When I had reached my hand unsure

of who would lift me out

through tears of pain I saw you

and I knew I'd be alright.

My days are filled with beauty 

now that I have you beside me

a mistake I made once in the past

shall not repeat again.

Friendship

For you I have no other gift

than that of friendship true

a shoulder you can lean upon

when skies turn grey from blue

Into your thoughts I'll weave a dream

that you can call your own

and appear to you when needed

bringing joy you've never known

My ears will always listen

to your stories true and deep

and if in pain you find your heart

I'll dry the tears you weep

A hand to hold on star filled nights

the beauty we can share

I give all these to you my friend

to show that someone cares

Far beyond the darkness deep

are spots of flickering life

eternal souls that never die

but shine and light our paths

into our lives they weave a web

of dreams and hopes to be

within our minds they give us strength

                                                     to see what we could be

Dreams

Enter my world but do beware

for life is not as it seems

slip through the door of reality

and now you're in my dreams

A silver thread of difference parts

the worlds of me and mine

your courage must be steadfast

as we travel on through time

Your eyes...

Through your eyes I see myself,

a woman, 

graceful,

beautiful.

The love you surround me with,

I feel in your touch,

hear in your words,

see in your smile.

Through your eyes I see myself,

a mother,

tender,

caring.

The strength you support me with,

I feel in your hope,

hear in your laughter,

see in your movements.

Through your eyes  I see myself,

Loving you.

An evening prayer

Dear Lord I pray as now I rest

your hand you'll place upon me

and in the morn when I awake

that once again you'll guide me

Place in my heart a love for those

who irritate and harm me

that I may show them by my ways

the person that they could be

Bless all the lives I've come to know

and those that I hold dear

allow me patience through my life

till judgement day is here.

Confusion

Confusion often hampers all the feelings which I hold,

And forces them behind the wall

Which fear of past turned cold.

So many I have passed by 

Dreaming for my yesterday,

But tell me love, please tell me,

Is there any other way?

I've waited deep within my heart to see you once again,

Dreaming of the future near

And memories of before.

A magnet draws me closer still

While wishing for the day,

But tell me love, please tell me,

Is there any other way?

I'm slowly understanding all the lessons I have learned,

As seasons change with time

You'll see I also have within.

My love for you has made me see

The dream was always there,

And now I know the answer,

No, there is no other way.

Feelings of helplessness...

Confusion

Covering my thoughts that once were clear

of what life had to offer

Deception

Taking my wishes and dreams

of people I believed

Fear

Stalking shadows bringing forth

memories of the past

You

Showing me love still exists

in someone I can trust

Why you?

Are you the one throughout my life

I must rely upon

For if you are, I realize

All dreams and hopes are gone.

You took from me the life I had

And every breath within

My garden full of blossoms sweet

No longer grows within.

Why did you choose to take my life

and sever my existence

was it the taste of blood you craved

or was I picked by chance.

You follow every move I make

And stop me when I turn

Raped of all my innocence

now rage begins to burn.

An ounce of sanity now is left

That wall you couldn't break

I'll wait till you believe me dead

And pierce your first mistake.

Together

Alone we are but individuals

searching for a meaning

not knowing where to turn

or which road to take

wondering what each day will bring

what each sunset will end

but together we are one

a strength that surrounds us

a love that grows

a new beginning

Alone, silenced

Surrounded by many

crowded, pushing, pulling, covering

yet alone, silenced

Reaching for you

searching, feeling, longing

yet alone, silenced

Falling deeper

into a pit of darkness

afraid of what lies at the bottom

Alone, silenced

by my desires and belief

that perhaps you may still care